All these years I was living in false, meaningless, self created and entertained beliefs about who abandoned me since childhood only to create more hatred, pity, and unforgiveness for them.
Lately, I've realised the truth.
I abandoned ME!!!!
Yes, painful but true. You Abandon You!!
Everytime someone shames us, we move away from a part of ourselves making us feel unworthy of our own love and care.
Everytime someone lets us down, we give ourselves one more reason of believing why we are useless.
Every time a relationship ends and we go out drinking with friends, or dinner and a spa trip, calling those things self-care, we pretend that we’ve moved on, leaving a hurting, suffering part of ourselves unattended and, ultimately, unloved and abandoned.
All this has been happenning so much over the years, getting into the fight- or - flight mode always, that it's really difficult now to return to those unexpressed emotions that we've pushed down and abusively abandoned ourselves.
Only I am the one who has abandoned myself. It always is about the SELF, never about OTHERS.
And, all this pain caused over the years can still be healed little by little. This work begins, Of course, by awareness and realisation first. Our decision to take action just follows then.
All this can be healed by little forgiveness, love and care towards self.
When we forgive ourselves, forgiveness of others just follows.
When we unconditionally love ourselves, unconditional love of others just follows.
When we accept ourselves, unconditional acceptance of others just follows.
Although not early enough, I still had this realization.
It's time to HEAL.
Lately, I've realised the truth.
I abandoned ME!!!!
Yes, painful but true. You Abandon You!!
Everytime someone shames us, we move away from a part of ourselves making us feel unworthy of our own love and care.
Everytime someone lets us down, we give ourselves one more reason of believing why we are useless.
Every time a relationship ends and we go out drinking with friends, or dinner and a spa trip, calling those things self-care, we pretend that we’ve moved on, leaving a hurting, suffering part of ourselves unattended and, ultimately, unloved and abandoned.
All this has been happenning so much over the years, getting into the fight- or - flight mode always, that it's really difficult now to return to those unexpressed emotions that we've pushed down and abusively abandoned ourselves.
Only I am the one who has abandoned myself. It always is about the SELF, never about OTHERS.
And, all this pain caused over the years can still be healed little by little. This work begins, Of course, by awareness and realisation first. Our decision to take action just follows then.
All this can be healed by little forgiveness, love and care towards self.
When we forgive ourselves, forgiveness of others just follows.
When we unconditionally love ourselves, unconditional love of others just follows.
When we accept ourselves, unconditional acceptance of others just follows.
Although not early enough, I still had this realization.
It's time to HEAL.
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